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Monday, April 03, 2006

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 23:18:34 GMT

Link to the new blog.
http://fatm.blogspot.com

There's always that one girl who changes your life. She's there to lift you up where you're down, to bring sun out of a rainy day. You can't help but smile around her and anything she says to you makes you feel like you have wings on your feet. Your number one goal in life is to never hurt her or ever make her cry... You love her.

If you ever read this: You know who you are.

Friday, February 17, 2006

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 01:05:04 GMT

Well, Xanga overhaul time! Yes, I'm back once again, throwing some love out to everyone. Wait. How do you throw love? Screw it. I'm going to go glowstick.

Which brings me to the question: Why the hell am I stringing? mean I could've picked a more normal hobby, one that involved physical involvement or one that I'm actually apply. I doubt I'm ever going to go to a rave in my lifetime, so why try?

I think I know why. Because stringing is my form of self expression. It may seem like pretty colours to some other people, but when you lace up the sticks and you block out everything excet the bass and the position of the strings in your mind, there's something that clicks: A Unity between sound and light that's calming. A untiy that makes me forget about anything and everything I'm worried about. About how I have no clue what I'm doing in life, about how everyone's leaving for college or programs and I'm dead broke, no liscence, no job, lazy ass Matt, with no direction in life.

Is it too much to ask for a good time while not having to worry about the stress of post-education? Fuck, I don't want to grow up. I'm scared. Responsibilities like actually having to worry about if I'm going to have enough money to keep up payments on a home, or electricity eventually make things such as thinking about how I'm going to pay for this months subscription of X Game pretty trivial. I mean, is it life's goal to make you seem as childish as possible? I mean, in order to do anything I WANT to do in life, I need math, physics, chem, or some shit that I'm bad at. I just want to be able to work during school, and spend my well earned breaks like I want. But NO. My summers are now to be spent earning money for college, where I'll be working even harder to prepare for the crappiness that is adulthood.

Also, thinking that I needed a girlfriend = bad mistake. No offense to said person, but I don't think this is what I need right now. Either that or she's just not the right one for me. I just need a girl to cuddle with and talk to. Some girl that's smart, informed.. and honestly a little crazy. Having a foil like that would be heaven. Fuck. I'm rambling too much.

This is what happens when you think too much, children.

Monday, February 06, 2006

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 19:43:00 GMT

I miss you.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 14:37:01 GMT

I present to you people, two pictures. First, of the toughest motherfucker ever to walk the planet..

And the second, of me, a la formal.

*Shrug* S'all well and done. I'm done my english exam, so that's why I'm home so early. I haven't updated in over a month, so I decided to throw a good entry on the old Zangay.

Nothing's really new, just doing the soccer/WoW/school/glowsticking thing. Got back into stringing after seeing Stinkowicz' (username) video. I guess I've been slacking as of late. Been DDR'ing, just chilling out... trying to keep myself from getting obese. Y'know how it is.

I'm also currently addicted to frutopia. How about that?

Downloaded 2 concert albums of queen, so that's why they're dominating my playlist. Queen > You.

Monday, December 26, 2005

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 02:19:11 GMT

Merry X-mas everyone. I'm currently posting this from my Aunt + Uncle's house in Sudbury, Ontario. It's North. And North means cold. So I'm cold.

X-mas was normal this year, you could say. Got a nice dress shirt, fantastic four, and some money. I'd like it a lot more if I was with my mom, than up here, but meh. I'm not too fond about these reletives, not because they're bad or annoying or anything, it's just that my two cousins are probably the nicest, and best kids a parent could ask for. So... naturally my dad feels to comment about that at every chance he gets. Woot. Way to make me feel important, dad.

They just seem so.. perfect. Like they both have jobs, liscences, amazing, multi-year relationships with people who care about them tons, amazing grades and all that jazz... And it sort of makes me feel inadequate. I don't know why I'm expressing all this electronically, so all you can point and laugh and say "LOSER!" but yeah, I did.

So there :P.

-Peace on Earth, death to X-mas carols.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 19:32:52 GMT

Formal = amazing. Lady in the red dress... Ow ow..

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 19:31:52 GMT

Well, been awhile since I last posted. Dunno why. Laziness I guess. I've been pretty busy with homework, soccer, WoW, and.. just living I guess.

Nothing really new going on. Went to Medieval Times today, and holy crap it was fun. I wish things were as... exciting as it was back then... I mean with the damsels and swords and tounaments... Makes me daydream.

Nothing new in the girl department either. Blah to that. There are two girls I sort of have my eye on, but I doubt I have any chance.

Enough rambling. I'm out.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 17:19:18 GMT

Well, I guess I could update every once and awhile. Hmmm.. What to write about.

I won 4th place at my school's talent show for glowsticking. If anyone has a video of it, I'll post it eventually. I think I did really well... not too many screwups, you know?

Nothing much else really going on. Just chilling out. Talking to Katie... playing WoW.. The normal.

Got a shitload of Hw to do, so I might write later.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 00:34:22 GMT

All I want to do is sleep. Aparantly I'm too "clingy/jealous" for this girl I have a thing for. Shit. I always have to overdo it, ya?

-Sigh-

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 17:00:50 GMT

Well, aparantly this weekend wasn't all it was cracked up to be. Major fight with my dad on friday, and I got blown off by pretty much my best friends yesterday. I'm just... confused and..emo right now =P

On another note. Katie.. if you read this, you're the best. Thanks for being here... I'll never forget anything that we've done together.

-Matt